end of the term

First term has come to an end. Now its the beginning of holiday. Unfortunately, unlike most of my friends, Im not going back home. For students who stay in the school, they have to work in the kitchen. The term break is 9 days, and the work is 4 days. So I can make use of couple of days to go to other cities (of course cities with more people than this village im living in now!!)

Yesterday we had the closing ceremony, on which several awards were given to students according to some contributions, among all of the awards are, community service awards, class representative award, and public speaking award.

Surprisingly, my public speaking group; consists of me and Diana got the award. This award is given to group of which both of the members achieve more than 90 score. On the other class, there were 3 groups to recieve the awards. That was unbelievebly awesome! I didnt expect much, but it would be a lie if i say i dont want it. Diana has been a real motivator. She is a high spirited person and doesnt give up. Even though we knew that it was not easy, we believe that we could make it. Well...... we did it!!!! ^^

My goal this term break is to be able to ride bicycle. I tried before but it wasnt very successful. This time, I will master it!

Spring mood

Say goodbye to winter and hi to spring.

I remember being asked in French class which season I like the best and why? (At that time, we were learning the names of seasons in French) I said that i like spring the best because its beautiful.

In spring, the flowers start to grow. The weather goes warmer. The sun shines to the ground and you can see the light is golden in color. Its not too hot nor too cold. On the grass alongside the road between the main building and the dorm, grows some flower. Some are yellow, some are purple, some are white. The first time, i notice these colors on the grass from far, I thought they were garbage, until i came close and see that they were flowers. What a pleasant surprise! Before it was snowy, the snow melted but the coldness stay still. I didnt expect the grass to grow flowers like that. So beautiful!!! Spring possess this magical power to turn everyone happy. Happiness blooms in my heart, enriched with all kinds of colors possibly exist and all alphabets there are for every languages in the world. Hundrends of possibility of arrangement!! Imagine everything! The impulse is irresistable and surprisingly flexible. I love spring.

However, three days ago, as it had been predicted, it started to snow. How strange. It was snowing for the whole day. The next day, the grass was covered in snow. So were the flowers. The snow melted the next morning, started to snow again in the afternoon, and it melted again the next morning. Those flowers are still there. I suppose, the flowers aside from being the ambassador of beauty also indicate the increase in temperature as they didnt grow before during the winter when it was cold. But I just felt that its getting even colder than before. And its windy. I certainly cant wait for the weather to get nicer.

Anyway,

Its approaching the end of this term now. Everyone is anxious about the final exams next week.
So...... it's good bcause that means they care. Hehehe.

19

U R a cool fantastic person... with a great sweet kind heart... which ... its very hard to find this days... U were born... and with U ... all the good things around the world were born too... that day... were stars shining all over the sky like never before... and U know why... cause an Angel was born... the moon sang a crazy song of love that said ... aku cinta kamu... cause the moon got in love with U.... U might not remember, cause U were crying in the doctor's arms... but I was two years old... and that day... I sent an innocent kiss from my heart... to U... with the Moon... that kept singing untill U felt asleep... now... as 19 years ago... we R in different places... but the moon is right there... so I send U an innocent kiss from my heart ..like once before... just to celebrate that an angel was born..... Happy birthday Angel..


Msg from a dear friend Jeffery which is too beautiful to be just written on an e-card that will expire soon.


Yesterday was my birthday.


Thanks for the msgs. I love you all.

so boring..

I always think Europe as the melting point of art, beauty, and love. Once, while walking my way on a street full of dried leaves falling from the trees, i cheerfully adored the view of my shoes stepped on the leaves and the sound made by that. Came a question from my friend, "do you like all these leaves on the ground?" Without any hesitation, i answered straight from my soul, "yea i love it". and then he said, "then Switzerland will be the perfect place for you". I asked in replied, "what do u mean?, they dont clean up the street?", "If you like quiet and peaceful environment, then you will be happy in Switzerland, because there, it is like that, and the view are just beautiful, the nature is amazing. U like that, right?". I answered him that I would be so much happy with that kind of situation. Perhaps it is funny for him, but i couldnt think of any reasons why wouldnt i like that. For people who like partying, of course that would be hell. but for me? oh no. These kind of places are created for person like me, i thought. I always believe that my heart is endlessly in search of peace of mind and pureness in personality. This dramatic thoughts led me to certainty that a beautiful and peaceful country such as Switzerland will be the best for me. At that time, I was enjoying my life in the big and busy city, and I was sure that things can only get better. For real.

Now that Im here in Switzerland, I started to really understand the question that my friend gave me. but more importantly, i started to get to know the real me, what i really want, and what i dont want. Life here is so boring.I do enjoy the beautiful view, i do raise my gratitude in every inhalation of the fresh air, i do listen to the sound of crows chatting every morning and night, i do walked on road carpeted with dried leaves, i do notice the details of the nature, a badass tree, or the colors gradation on the mountain, i do love drinking evian water and eating complete 3 sets of meal courses. Its wonderful really. However, as I live my life here, im sensing a big hole in my heart, which cant be fullfilled by anything i can find here; this hole is created by the loss of past convinience. As more of this fact comes to realization, living turns into surviving.